Last Night

I’m not perfect. In fact I’m far from it. Last night was hard. Voices were raised and tempers flared and I couldn’t control myself.

The boys couldn’t see eye to eye and eventually the constant bickering wore me down and I lost my cool and started yelling.

I said things I didn’t mean. I even banged my hand on the coffee table hard enough to hurt myself because it made me feel better at the time and I thought that it would startle the boys enough for them to stop.

But it didn’t.

I yelled until they both got upset and stormed off and slammed bedroom doors and tears flowed, mine included.

I wanted to say sorry but I couldn’t. Not in that moment. I was too upset. Raw.

I’m not prefect. It was awful but today was a new day. Tears have dried, moods have shifted, I still love my boys and yes the ADHD is still there.

It will still be there tomorrow so without a doubt there will another battle.

It may not be today but on this journey you never say never!